Anger, it's so ridiculous . . .

I spent the day yesterday being very angry and it was a ridiculous waste of my day. I did not spend any time with God because I knew he would not approve of how I was acting. I seem to always know what I'm doing is wrong and that I am making a choice of disobedience. I really wish God would make me clueless and that I wouldn't realize what I'm doing. It took so much energy to be angry all day and boy did my mind have a hay day with accusations and thoughts. I took it out mostly on my husband but it spilled over onto my kids and everyone I came in contact with during the day. I may not have seemed angry but I was not wanting to give anyone my time.

I am not angry today it was too much work and there are no rewards at the end of the day - just a stomachache from the 2 doughnuts and chili cheese fritos I consumed to make me feel better. Didn't work!

Do you ever feel angry? Why do we let it consume us? Why do we not do what we know we need to do? (confusing but the only way to word it)