I spent the day yesterday being very angry and it was a ridiculous waste of my day. I did not spend any time with God because I knew he would not approve of how I was acting. I seem to always know what I'm doing is wrong and that I am making a choice of disobedience. I really wish God would make me clueless and that I wouldn't realize what I'm doing. It took so much energy to be angry all day and boy did my mind have a hay day with accusations and thoughts. I took it out mostly on my husband but it spilled over onto my kids and everyone I came in contact with during the day. I may not have seemed angry but I was not wanting to give anyone my time.
I am not angry today it was too much work and there are no rewards at the end of the day - just a stomachache from the 2 doughnuts and chili cheese fritos I consumed to make me feel better. Didn't work!
Do you ever feel angry? Why do we let it consume us? Why do we not do what we know we need to do? (confusing but the only way to word it)
I know where you're coming from Christie...I used to get angry, but rarely let it show. I would eat my way through the situation... not a good way to handle anger. I eventually... and I don't know other than by the grace of God, have mostly given up on anger. Part of it, is that the kids are gone now... kids, may not necessarily make us angry, but they have a way of helping the volcano to blow. Anger is a total waste of time, as are many of the other emotions that tend to bring us down. At least for me, age has been sweet in helping me "lose" my anger... I know that is not the case with all people.
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